I’ve had homosexual tendencies for as long as I can remember, and growing up in a very conservative small town in the heart of the Bible Belt wasn’t exactly a dream. I went to college hoping to find freedom by living out who I thought I really was. But it was there that I finally met the real Jesus – the lover of my soul who gave all for me.
Seeking Jesus as a young broken man, in a community of other broken people redeemed by God from various walks of life, I was seeing some amazing growth and healing in my life for several years. But for multiple reasons, all of the growth stopped. And my faith-life began to stagnate. And at the time of this blog’s creation, it’s been about four and a half years of just wandering around in the desert.
But God has promised to conform me to the image of His son, and to finish the work that He started, and just as I was drying up, He led me to a refreshing, flowing stream. Now, I’m attempting to pick up the pieces and honestly deal with the brokenness and sin that has crippled me for so long. This blog is part of that. It’s meant to be a sort of catharsis for me, to work out my thoughts and feelings throughout my journey to become more whole in Christ. Eventually, I hope to get to a place where I no longer feel the need to keep this blog anonymous, but as it stands, I have a long way to go. But I’m hopeful. More hopeful than I’ve been in years.